Kirsten and Scott--a husband and wife that are separated by jailhouse walls, as he is incarcerated despite his innocence. He is facing life in prison without the possibility of parole. As a family of 4, and then 5, as the story unfolds, Scott and Kirsten knew the "good life." But God had a better one in store. They first had to be broken. They plumb new depths of their faith and in their knowledge of the Word in these days that some would consider dark, but that God infused with great joy. Throughout a total of 16 months of separation they wrote letters to each other that are filled with the stories that capture the depth of their love, family life, fear, questioning, and details of what God is doing in, around and through them. Many of the letters are laced with snaphots of jailhouse interactions in the maximum security unit where God still dwells. It is inspiring to see how the Holy Spirit moves throughout the whole situation when you see Scott’s letter next to Kirsten’s as the days go by. Prayers are being prayed and answered and it is all recorded in the daily wrap-up. It is a God story. It is a love story. And the letters are delivered daily. Make sure you subscribe to my RSS feed to receive daily updates of our story. To learn more about this blog and the background behind it, check out the About Section.

december 5th – inside/out

by Kirst on November 21, 2009

Hi Sweetheart,

I’m excited about seeing you today.  I was unable to call you last night, phones were packed, so I’m not sure what time you will be here.  Usually. when I know what time you are coming, I start to get butterflies as the time nears.  The anticipation of seeing you, being with you, starts to build and I cannot sit still.  The need to be with my friend, my wife, is overwhelming.  Not knowing the exact time you’ll be here will have me carrying those feelings all day.  That’s okay, I love those feelings.

It’s just after lunch and I’m reflecting on our visit.  I feel bad for not praying with you, that should be “automatic” every time we talk or visit.  Praying together is more important than discussing any of the topics we touch upon, I’m working on being obedient in that regard.  I know God is present during our visits, but I need to invite him, through prayer, to direct and lead our time together.  When you mentioned that Alan said about preparing for every possibility I was a little taken aback.  I, like you, have not though much about the worst case scenario.  For me it is partly because 1) I don’t want to consider that as an outcome and 2) because I strongly feel the Lord is leading me in the other direction.  I wish I could have articulated this to you at the time of our visit.  I wish I would have prayed with you at that moment and rejoiced in the fact that our God is in control and bigger than any problem or concern that we face.  He is in control and performing a mighty work in our lives, our faith must be steadfast in Him.

You looked so good today!  I wanted to be able to hold you, kiss you, leave with you.  Cute shoes!  I remember when Kayti told me that when we were in the wagon.  Such a big girl.  Your outfit looked really nice.  I love that look on you.  The sweater, jeans, brown loafers.  You little preppy PI.  Ha ha.  Please know that every ounce of my being wants to be near you, to have you near me.  I am counting down the days until I am back at home with you, I just know I will be.

I’ll be talking to you soon my love, probably right after dinner.  Know of my deep love and desire to grow old with you.

Yours, Scott

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