take 2: december 20th – inside/out

Hi Sweetheart,

It’s just before dinner on Monday evening.  Dave went to court today but a “dry run.”  He’ll be here until the 28th.  It’s kind of nice knowing that I don’t have to break-in a new cellie over Christmas.  The process can be draining.  As I think about it, I’ve had 5 different cellies in 3 months.  Definitely not the norm in here.

I had a really good morning of study.  With Dave at court, I knew things were going to be nice and quiet.  But I was so tired from not sleeping well that I had almost convinced myself that when I got back to the cell I would just go back to sleep.  Lately that has been my battle.  My routine is to come back from breakfast and dig into the Word.  But I have been fighting with myself to make it a habit.  So this morning I laid back down and figured that I would read a couple of chapters and then doze off to sleep.  But as I laid there I felt a conviction from the Holy Spirit to get up.  I realized that I had committed to an appointment with the Lord every morning after breakfast.  And here I was laying down.  Unacceptable.  I should treat it as if He was physically meeting with me.  And with that regained perspective, I got up and prepared for my meeting.  I thank God for His help in battling my flesh.

I finally got my haircut.  It’s been 30+ days since my last one.  Jaime usually cuts my hair, but we have a new guy in the tank who was doing them today.  It was cool to get some one-on-one time with him.  I had not had a chance to speak with him yet.  His name is Ernie and he has a girlfriend of 12 years and a child.  When I sat down in the chair and introduced myself he immediately inquired about the Bible Study.  He had noticed that we were meeting and he wanted the details.  So I filled him in and told him that we would welcome him at the table.  We had a good long visit that I believe paved the way for him to feel comfortable in attending the  Bible Study.  I will add him to my prayer list tonight.  He’s waiting to catch the chain up state so he’ll probably only be here for a month.  I pray that God will do a mighty work in that short period of time.

Good to hear your voice today.  I’m so glad that you were able to take Buddy to Legoland.  What a memory!  I can’t wait to see the pics.  I think he needed that time with you, although he probably could have done without the roller coaster.  It’s alright, he needs to be exposed to that kind of stuff.

I’ll write more later.  I hope that I’ll get a chance to speak with you tonight.  My soul just needs that time of connection with you.  Hearing your voice makes my heart smile.  Please kiss our babies “goodnight” for me.

I love you!  Scott

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