take 2: january 12th – inside/out

Hi Sweetheart,

It’s just before dinner on Wednesday evening.  Today has been busy.  It started with a trip to the clinic to get a chest x-ray.  When I had visited with the nurse on Monday, he had mentioned that he would be ordering it.  He thought he had heard something when he listened to my lungs and ordered the x-ray just to be on the safe side.  Being at the clinic was an experience in itself.  There were guys sitting in the waiting area that had been there for hours.  Thankfully I only had to site there through one episode of “Starting Over” and then one “Law and Order.”  The cool part was I actually got to watch a whole episode of something, which is a rarity in here.  In the tank the channel changes quite frequently.

Anyway, they took two quick chest x-rays and the the tech looked them over immediately.  He though he saw bronchitis, but mentioned that the x-rays would be “read” later that day and I would find out in 3-4 days.  So we’ll see.

The minute I got back into the tank, I was called out for an official visit.  It was PI from Grover’s office.  Grover had sent him to let me know in advance of the continuance that will be offered in court tomorrow.  And while I am not any less happy about the decision, I appreciate the gesture.  Grover didn’t have to do that, but I sense that that is just the way he operates.  He is a real class act and very thorough.  Again, I am glad that we have him on our side as a part of the team.

Now when I got back from my visit I was met with another challenge with my cellie.  He has a way of getting himself into serious situations.  This is definitely not a good place to be with a habit like that.  I wound up spending quite a bit of time and effort mending fences.  I’m not even entirely sure that things are smoothed over, probably just pacified.  I’m praying that he leaves tonight for prison and that the problems leave with him.  If he doesn’t leave tonight, the next possible days are Monday and Wednesday nights of next week.  He just doesn’t have the ability to control his anger and allows people to get him riled up.  I’ve been working with him to find alternate ways of dealing with difficult people, as well as productive ways to channel those feelings/emotions.  But the lessons learned in this place don’t often come easy.

Here is a bright spot of the day.  My name was submitted for a possible chow server.  We’ll see what materializes.  Let’s continue to pray that if it’s God’s will I will get it.

I really miss being able to talk with you.  We haven’t had a one on one conversation in awhile.  The way things have been operating around here lately, I really not sure when I’ll get the chance to call you late at night.  Maybe this Friday or Saturday night, since we normally get to stay up later on those days.  I just miss you and want to reconnect.  Not being able to makes me feel incomplete, or out of step.  Know what I mean?

OK, Scriptures from the day, found in James.

When you bow down before the Lord and admit your dependence on Him, he will lift you up and give you honor. 4:10

Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed.  The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and wonderful results.  5:16

That last one is one that I have had memorized for quite awhile now.  It is also the verse that is on the bottom of that picture at the end of the hall by the kids’ rooms.  I love that picture!

I’ll write more tomorrow.  Please know of my deep love and respect for you.  Kiss our babies goodnight for me.

I love you!  Scott

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